Friday, June 21, 2013
So... I've been avoiding writing this post like the plague...like seriously dreading it...because I feel like a failure. But for the good of some readers that may be helped by my situation & the gory truth of it, I will share with all the honesty I can muster.
I have been battling depression...post-partum? regular? Who knows... maybe some of both. The depression led to overeating (not of good foods either, think like, a 3 month Mini Egg Bender)...which led to weight gain & more depression...which then fueled more overeating & so on & so on...VICIOUS cycle...Brutal. I've gained 20 lbs since my last post. Ugh.
So what changed? Well... I realized something just wasn't right. I sought help. That was a very humbling experience, let me tell you... I also realized I couldn't keep living the way I was... I was miserable...in every sense of the word. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, as a mother, as a wife, as a co-worker... I just couldn't do it anymore.
So with help from my amazing husband & his amazing cousin Ashley - who runs a very helpful blog over here, my doctor, a wonderful counselor, amazingly patient co-workers, loving friends & from Heavenly Father ... I've slowly been climbing my way out of what I would easily classify as a pit of despair (no Princess Bride humor intended ~ well, maybe a little bit). I've been getting back on track...have been eating healthier, have begun working out again & have even lost a couple of pounds (YAY!) ... So stay tuned...I will be posting some of the yummy things I've been eating lately & how my progress is coming along.
"Every journey begins with a single step...but you have to keep going in the right direction if you want to end up at your desired destination"